I really appreciate the palette consistency through these.
Can I tell you a secret? You don’t have to be in a relationship.
I mean it. I know they force it down your throat until you choke on it. Girls aren’t pretty unless they’re wanted. Boys aren’t men unless they’re having sex with someone. People aren’t lovable until they’re dating someone.
But a relationship won’t always make you happy, and as wonderful as romance is, it isn’t the only love that exists. I have seen friendships that are deeper and more pure than couples who swear it’s forever - and yet the friendship is the one people ignore.
I have heard so often “nobody loves me” out of the mouths of people who are single. And it kills me because if you ask them: where are your parents, your teachers, your classmates, your pets - they say, yes, okay, but it doesn’t count. Of course it counts, love doesn’t diminish just because someone doesn’t want to have sex with you. In fact, doesn’t it sort of make that love more real that they want nothing - not even a date - out of you?
It is pretty to be in love. It’s magical, I’m sure. But it’s also wonderful to stop for ice cream in your prom dress with six other girls. It’s also wonderful to go visit the world with nothing but a bunch of buddies who are really excited about learning.
The problem is: we’ve made everything about “the one”. But maybe “the one” is just you, loving yourself, having fun, and being happy. Maybe instead of looking for our other halves, we should be piecing ourselves together.
Maybe I wasn’t born unfinished. Maybe I am the one who makes myself better.
January 1st.
“I can still taste your words in my mouth they taste like chalk, everything has been so dull since you left like when you turn your phone brightness to zero.”
January 24th.
“I saw your mom today she asked me how I was and she told me that she missed seeing me around, your mom cared more about me than you did.”
February 14th.
“Did you go to the concert without me? We’ve been planing this for months I can’t believe you.”
February 19th.
“I almost drove to your house tonight, I missed you more than usual. I had to have my mom take my keys. God you’re killing me.”
March 27th.
“Happy anniversary not like it matters now, it would have been two years. None of that matters now I guess.”
April 3rd.
“I saw you today I didn’t say hi. You haven’t answered any of my texts so I figured you wouldn’t want to see me.”
May 14th.
“I drove to the beach today everything looked clear when I watched the sunset. I know you’re gone, I know you don’t love me anymore. I understand why you left, it still hurts but I’ll be okay.”
